I've been trying to express myself in different ways, I've been think about this for quite some time now...

Its too bad it ended this way, I was not ready to give up now I know how it feels to have my heart ripped out by love, I know it was wrong for what choices I made during our relationship but I absolutely 100% tired to turn things around but she would never give me any trust or time and being treated the way i was being treated, the lies and manipulation and the pain and thoughts was too much to handle, I'm not the kind of person that can recuperate fast, date some one else and give up easily when I truly love someone. It's better it happen now because no matter how devastating it was, it let me know deep down how every one feels. Still to this day I think about her and what I've done, but I'll just use it to better my self, I would have rather of tried to work things out, than to run away. I lost a lot of people I cared about, friends and made a lot of enemies. I guess one of my weaknesses is I care too much for the wrong people, it's time to let go, I need to move on but it's 100 times more difficult when your alone and no one to help work things out, but I've done it my whole life, why stop now.

I've heard the saying "Out of sight out of mind" That doesn't work on me when I truly love them...

    Cant wait to find the one that's meant for me, and have my own family, just have to be patient...